Those were the first words of the email notifying me that none of my three submissions to the Fine Arts League of Cary Annual Juried Exhibit were accepted into the show. I wish I could say I wasn't crushed reading them, that it wasn't a challenge to fight back the tears of rejection. I knew going in that my chances of getting into such a high profile exhibit as a raw beginner with not even a year's worth of experience under my belt were less than zero. That it was a giant risk and a huge leap of faith for me to even try to enter something of this magnitude so soon, with no training and no true real-world art experience. Especially considering only about 20% of the entries received would be accepted - with likely the vast majority of those coming from trained professional artists with years of experience. But even despite knowing all that, there was always that tiny sliver of hope from the perhaps misguided but wishful little cheerleader inside my own head that said "there's always a chance so go ahead and enter!" And, despite my unexpected but real all the same, bit of heartbreak at this present moment, I'm still glad I took the chance and put myself out there. I'm going to let myself be sad, at least for a while, but I'm not giving up. I'm going to continue painting. I'm going to continue to enter juried shows once in a while. And I'm going to continue to believe in myself.
I'm also going to look into non-juried exhibits, including one this month at Tipping Paint Gallery in Raleigh, being held in conjunction with the Tour d'Coop. The Tour is dedicated to educating the public about urban farming and raises funds for Urban Ministries of Wake County. As part of this year's event, Tipping Paint Gallery is holding an "Eggistentialism" exhibit "celebrating all things chicken". I plan to submit a total of three paintings - two for the exhibit itself as well as another for the raffle.
|Eggistentialism - soft pastel submissions, © 2014 Tammy Kaufman - soft pastels on sanded paper|