First Dance Performance November 13, 2004
I know this is rather late, as my first performance was actually a little over a week ago, but incredibly I'm still recovering from the excitement of it all! I was so nervous all day and night Friday and then by Saturday afternoon I was pretty much a nervous wreck. By the time Robin arrived at my house for us to practice, I could barely remember my name, much less the choreography! And then we changed it in several places, with only a few hours left to go before performing. On arriving at the dance studio Saturday evening, she and I went over the routine again a couple of more times, and I felt like we were fairly ready. Of course, when you're on stage and everyone is watching you and you know this is your one shot at it, well, let's just say I was glad Qadria was behind the audience with our "cheat sheet" to sort of keep us on track with what moves were coming up next. The only thing is, I didn't write on the sheet how MANY of each move and to which direction, so when I got my right confused with my left, there just wasn't much even she could do to help! Luckily, I didn't drop my veil, it didn't catch on my hair or my costume, and I didn't fall down, so I suppose I would have to say the performance was a success overall. I still cringe a little watching the video and seeing my left-right confusion and nervous stiffness, but I think if I can use that to learn and grow as a dancer, it's worth it. Also, as Kate told me, I can count this performance as the first one under my belt, so to speak, and ideally it will get easier and less anxiety ridden each successive time. And even now, with merely one performance to my credit and as much as I enjoy dancing to Qadria's beautiful choreographies, I'm already looking forward to writing and performing one of my very own.
P.S. As a side note, I guess this would be a good time to explain my dance name. Izdihaar is the Arabic term for "blossoming and flourishing" - I feel it is a beautiful reminder of my aspirations in my own development as a dancer.